Looking back on 2012 this morning as I watch a Dance Moms marathon (don't judge me - I know you watch Swamp People and Duck Dynasty!). 2012 was a year. It was up, it was down, it was a mess. It started off so horribly with the loss of my Heidi (our beautiful Australian Shepherd). I have cried many tears throughout the year over her and how much I still blame myself over her being gone. In fact, the ASPCA has tried to have me jump off the roof with all the abused dog and cat commercials that I have viewed while off of work. But the one thing all the loss has done is brought us closer to the furry little peanuts we have in Hef and Coco. They have become 9 times more spoiled, and as I look at the 30 toys spread around the room where they were playing last night, it makes me smile.
A big up for 2012 was our trip back to Miami. I LOVE MIAMI!! If you know me, you know Florida is my home. Well not really, but I want it to be. Beaches, water, warm weather, and where I can sport the glass slippers of the south all year long! (Flip flops in case you didn't know) But this year Miami brought beautiful weather and Wrestlemania. I met CM Punk for the first time and was absolutely a giddy nut job during it. (I apologize Punk...I will try and be better next time!) But Miami was amazing. I miss it and the Cuban food already and can't wait to go back again one day.
Pulling into Miami in our Mecedes SUV (yeah....that's what happens when Enterprise accidentally double rents a regular car and you get there last....they upgrade you to the big kids car!! Whoop Whoop!) was when I got the call from my RE saying they could bump my appointment up a week. Little did I know moving that appt up would start a rocky road. I experienced the joy and elation of being pregnant because of this office and doctor. As much as the loss rocked the very foundation I stand on, I am happy to have had a chance to experience that piece of life. To know and understand what it was like, even if for only what seemed like seconds, was an amazing feeling.
The losses took me to the lowest spot I have ever been in, but I was pulled back out and headed back on the road to watch what I love, wrestling. Those 2 hours shows do wonders for a girl that had been through what I had been through. And while you laugh at it being wrestling, wrestling is my thing, but think of yours. What do you love doing or attending more than anything? It's about the feeling and the comfort you get from doing it. So that's why it was so special.
Along this road we were accepted into our adoption agency. This was not just an awesome experience, but also awesome because it reconnected me with some awesome friends, Lori & Steve, who will bringing sweet Davis home from Korea in 2013!! (cue Fireworks & awesomeness now!!) Adoption was a scary thng to dive off into, because even with research, I had no idea I knew people going through it. I was so thrilled to have a buddy to ask questions to and to learn about how different adoption journeys can be. International and Domestic are different, but the emotions are the same. We are both dying to meet our family that is out there waiting for us! We also did the adoption walk together in Nashville. It was pretty awesome to see all the people around you that adoption has impacted. It was an amazing experience.
I was also blessed through adoption long before now. My amazing friends that are adopted have been incredible. Even though I knew they were adopted, I never knew their whole story. Two have been kind of enough to share and it is so awesome. I have enjoyed listening to their thoughts on the way their lives were shaped and also their thoughts on how adoption has changed over the last 30 years. If you have never talked to someone that was adopted, I think you should. You will be amazed at what all they have to say and how amazing the adoption process is. I can't say enough about how much I appreciate them sharing with me and beyond that, just the friendship they have always given me. True friends are so hard to come by and having their support for so many years and especially now, I just can't say thank you enough.
2012 ended not exactly how I wanted it too. I wanted to be officially approved/our profile being shown and that didn't happen. We are just one step away, but with holidays and vacations, etc. that step didn't happen. But that's ok. We celebrated like it was official and started on Cupcakes room. Christmas was all about Cupcake this year. Books, toys, bedding, strollers, and pack-n-plays now fill up my house and it seems so real that Cucpcake is on their way home. It's scary and exciting! Hopefully by this time next week we will be official and I can start being nervous about being shown to birth moms!
So what does 2013 hold? I pray for a year of excitement. I am happy to box up 2012 and put it away. It was hard year but it taught me a lot. But now I am ready to move forward into 2013, which I see as being a year of change and growth. I may be a mom before the year is over. Wow! My birthday is 28 days away and I already have my gift. I got tickets to wrestling. (Are you shocked?) But I am so excited about it! I am working on trying out new recipes to share with ya'll....something to keep the blog fun while we wait :) I have 82 days before I have to fit into a bridesmaid's dress. Operation Bridesmaid is already in full effect. Clean eats and glitter sweating in the gym. (Yeah I am so awesome I sweat glitter....yes it can happen!) Michael also decided to join the fun and wanted to try a new workout home DVD. You know we did Insanity and P90X. This go we will be trying TapoutXT. I will try and review it on here so you guys can see how good it is and if it delivers results. I am also going to try Amanda Latona's Miracle booty workout...since I have never known what a booty could look like. I know what hips look like for sure...just not booty. So if it truly leaves me with Booty-Booty-Rockin'-Everywhere (that was for you Casey-Hizzle!) then I will recommend it on here and show you the results. If it is a flop...well I will let you know that too.
So with black-eyed peas on the stove and turnip greens next up and potatoes in the crock pot, here is to 2013. I plan on spending today with the furry babies and Michael watching football and eating good food that I have been told is good luck. Honestly, I am not much of one who believes in luck (my favorite wrestler has a tattoo that says luck is for losers....any idea why I adore him?), but I eat it anyway. It's a tradition now more than anything. Luck isn't something I trust in. I trust in faith and taking the reigns and making things happen. I don't rely on luck...I rely on hard work and if you see something you want...you make it happen. So 2013 - watch out - I plan on making you the year that other years will envy. Let's rock it out :)
Watch for a recipe review for the potatoes in the crockpot, clean chicken chipotle soup and oatmeal bake soon.
Until then - Peace, Love, & Glitter!
Misty
2013 is going to be awesome! It's so much fun to be on the adoption journey with you, and I can't wait to meet Cupcake! I know you'll be an wonderful mother, and hopefully that time will come sooner rather than later. :)
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