So today was a test of a lot of things but one in particular was my patience. I, at times, fancy myself as a hard @$$ that can handle tough situations, like rude people, with dishing it out right back to them. Unfortunately, that is simply a little bit of a fantasy lol! I usually just go out of my way to be nicer to them to stop the rudeness. Today though I got a little taken back by someone's actions....well maybe 2 people. It was 2 guys that I work with that are both nice, one particularly very nice and usually shy/quiet. Well not so much today. Today I completely upset him by asking a simple question that I was directed to ask. I felt awful that he was so mean to me about it, because it was just out of his character. I was mad too, don't get me wrong, but deep down I felt like I had done something to him personally to make him mad.
I was probably being WAY oversensitive since it started off as a tough day. Today was a day I had to give myself an injection (if you have no idea what that is about....refer to previous posts). Well this one today not only kind of hurt, but it hurts a little to know this may be the last go at this. We don't know what the next plan of action is and it has troubled me a bit. I also have so many emotions and nerves running rampant right now with the adoption class starting tomorrow night. I am so excited and scared all at the same time. So I might have been a little hypersensitive because of what I was going through. Which made me think how he had no idea what I was going through....therefore how could I know what he might be going through as well? Maybe he was having a terrible day too. Maybe he was worrying about a sick child or someone had really been hard on him in a meeting. It could be anything. And while it doesn't excuse it of course, it makes it a bit more understandable.
It put something in perspective for me. I can be standing next to someone at the store and they could be completely broken and so sad, and I would never know it. I always smile at people I make eye contact with even I don't know them. I hope that maybe can make them feel better if they are having a bad day. But now it makes me want to just be a little nicer. I just want to maybe help someone not feel like everyone in the world is against them. Not be like I was today and just have my first reaction be anger when someone lashes out at me.
We will see how I do with that process :) As for tonight...I am about to fix food for a bridal shower tomorrow (yay Rachel!!) and some yummy cookies to share with the other soon to be parents in my adoption class. This weekend I head to a ghost tour with two girls that I can't thank God enough for. They make me smile whenever I see their faces! I love you so much Casey & Crissy!! Can't wait until I get scared on the ghost tour...I know it isn't scary...but I will still be scared lol! And it is now 10 days until I see CM Punk again!! I am happier than a short-legged pony in a high field of oats!
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